Grandma Gwen went to be with Jesus

This was a sad week for me, but one of joy for my Grandma. She went to heaven peacefully this past Wednesday. I was at work, when I found out. I cried upon receiving the message. I should have stayed at work, would have kept my mind pre-occupied. But I went home, hugged my boys and quickly packed to leave Thursday morning for the memorial services.

The trip to Salmon, a 6 hour drive, was a first for me. Traveling with three boys in a small car, is not something I would recommend but it was for good reason. I am so thankful that my sister, Caroline rode with me, and was much help throughout this little journey. We made it just in time for the graveside memorial, but by the time we reached our destination on time, Hunter and Colter had had enough. With two crying babes, I thought it best to stay behind. So we visited with my Aunt Molly and waited to join the rest of our family.


I thought a lot about family on this trip. My Dad, losing his Mom. My Grandpa saying good bye to his wife of many years. That is what made me sad. The loss for others. Don't get my wrong I will miss my Grandma dearly, but at the same time I just can't imagine my Mom dying and how I would feel. Or even losing Jason, we've only been married for 2 years, but I just can't imagine. I know we all found comfort knowing where Grandma was, with Jesus. I hold on to that.

I think Walker said it best. I came home from work crying and he asked why. I told him why and he looked at me and said "Don't cry Mom, Grandma is in heaven and she can fly now." I chuckled a little through the tears.

We spent the weekend in a hotel, the boys were pretty good. I brought toys, books and games. So we had our home away from home. We got to eat out, spend time with family I haven't seen in ages, laugh and share lots of memories, all the while creating new ones.

Talking to Walker about death and funerals was interesting. Kids minds are fascinating. Before bed one night he asked me "So, when are we gonna see Grandma's statue?" I'm thinking - what is he talking about? I asked him what did you say and he repeated the question. After a little digging he was referring to the headstone. I had to laugh at that one.